Happy Friday! I just love Fridays. All day Matthew and I look forward to Allan’s arrival and (usually) pizza night follows. Tonight we did not enjoy Friday Night Pizza night; however, we did have something that was completely amazing! Remember the spaghetti that I blogged about yesterday? It was amazing!!! Both Matthew and Allan wanted seconds. 🙂 I love when a recipe hits on all cylinders. It will definitely be added to future supper rotations. I will share the recipe another day. Today I want to talk about my revised June food goals as they have been weighing on my heart the last couple of days.
Today will be my last day of *sorta* Cooler 1. Yesterday Allan and I were talking about my mood (which has been a bit cranky) and hunger levels (as I paced the kitchen trying not to eat anything) and I realized that it’s not good for me to starve my body to try to loose weight. Being that I am breastfeeding and am very active, my body obviously needs more food that I am giving it on Cooler 1. And we all know what happens when we create too much of a caloric deficit… our body goes into starvation mode and begins to store fat and burn muscle. The last thing that I want to do is to lose any of the muscle that I have worked so hard to put on and do not want to put on any additional body fat. So, today I kept it pretty close to Cooler 1, with a couple additions, as noted below, including the banana soft serve (made with unsweetened homemade almond milk) that I am eating as I write this post and the popcorn that I am going to pop for Allan and I tonight while we watch a movie. 😉
I am so happy that I did challenge myself to do Cooler 1 for a few days; although, it might have been a little overly ambitious considering where body is at in my post-pregnancy journey. I did learn a lot about myself and what my body can tolerate. I know that I need to incorporate more veggies into my diet, instead of relying on fruit for my complex carbs. I also understand that I should strive to consume whole grains in the most natural state possible by choosing sweet potatoes, oat groats, brown rice, millet and quinoa over sprouted grain bread, sprouted grain tortillas and sprouted grain buns. I realized that I like to bake a lot and I feel very sad when I am not whipping up a batch of something. In addition, I am still toying with the idea of minimizing dairy in my diet, as I suspect that it may be causing some bloating/water retention.
So, tomorrow I will be eating in my usual Eat-Clean Diet Cooler 2 fashion, but will allow myself one piece of yellow cake with chocolate frosting, that my mom and sister made for her college graduation party. I think that after my week of Cooler 1, I earned it. 😉 On Wednesday, I forgot to share that I weighed myself and was down 3 lbs since Friday. I can’t wait to weigh in again tomorrow morning.
I will be back to Cooler 2 on Sunday and then starting next week I will not be following Tosca’s Eat Clean Diet Stripped plan to the “T”. After this week on Cooler 1 and then looking at the Stripped plan again, I realize that it will be too stressful to eat Stripped on the weekends. In Minnesota, we get to enjoy 3 nice, warm months every year. The other 9 months are either cold, rainy or snowy. So, we pack a lot into our beautiful Minnesota summers. We are either away, at family gatherings or out and about every weekend. We eat out or at friend’s houses frequently, attend picnics and potlucks and in general, really enjoy ourselves. I do not want to miss out on the clean fun that we usually have by limiting myself to the meal plans that are outlined in Tosca’s Eat-Clean Diet Stripped book. I feel like eating this way would be more of a stressful chore than an enjoyment.
Don’t get my wrong, I will not be eating without abandon. 🙂 I still plan to keep my food Stripped and Cooler 2 tight by upping my veggie intake, limiting sugar (allowing a little maple syrup and honey here and there in baked goods and homemade sherbets), minimizing dairy and sticking to whole grains. However, my weeks will be Stripped while the weekends will stick to Coolers 2 (and sometimes 3). I will still pack my cooler, make clean treats and eat clean. It simply means that instead of a weight loss of 2-3 pounds per week, which the Stripped plan promises, I will most likely only be loosing .5-1 lbs per week and during a handful of indulgent weeks I will simply maintain. I am perfectly fine with this. The last couple pounds can always wait until the fall.
However, both Allan and I suspect that when I stop making eating into such a chore that the weight may simply come off… In addition, our high activity level (i.e. lots of walks, biking, picnic games, etc.) along with the abundance of local, fresh, organic farmer’s market produce (which are mostly veggies in MN) the last couple pounds may melt off. We’ll see. Whatever happens, I simply want to enjoy myself.
Being the perfectionist that I am, I tend to focus on the end goal instead of relishing in the moment. Today I look back at photos of myself pre-weight loss and, more recently, post-partum and do not recognize my body. I have made such an incredible transformation and instead of focusing on the progress that I have made, I tend to dwell on where I am going.
I usually look back at my post-weight loss photos and wish that I had the body that I see there. However, I now weigh 5.5 pounds less than I did then and, other than my waist, my measurements are smaller as well. It is time to be proud of the skin that I am in and stop comparing myself to a figment in my mind! I am perfect just the way that I am. 🙂
Today’s food journal:
Breakfast: asparagus + spinach + 1/2 c egg whits + 1 yolk, Porridge (soaked overnight and then heated this morning, this made 4-5 servings) 1/4 c oat groats + 1/4 c farro + + 1/4 c buckwheat groats + 1/2 c oat bran + 4 tbsp chia seeds + 2 cinnamon sticks + dash vanilla extract + 4 cups water
Second breakfast: 2 Cooler 1 protein donuts (1/2 oats serving + 1 veggie serving)
Lunch: Salad – mixed greens + cucumbers + grilled chicken leftovers + sweet potato + balsamic vinegar
I made two new veggie dips for Melissa’s graduation party and had to do some taste testing to get the mixture right.
Afternoon snack: homemade granola + almond milk + 2 Chocolate Cooler 1 muffins
Supper: leftover Spaghetti from last night baked in the oven and topped with additional fire roasted tomatoes + large romaine salad topped with balsamic vinegar + scant handful dry roasted unsalted almonds
Evening snack: banana soft serve + homemade popcorn
OH how I SOOO get what you are saying! I have grappled with all the same thoughts, actions and ideas when it comes to food, diet, weight loss, etc. I think you are coming to the right conclusion and agree that letting go a little help A LOT! There is something to be said about relaxation and the pleasure principle when it comes to health and weight loss. After I had my 1st baby – I was able to let go a bit on the dieting front… don’t get me wrong, I ate very well for the most part but I let go of the micro-mananging and trying to balance every last meal and micronutrient. I focused on doing and eating things that made me FEEL good rather than what I thought I ‘should’ be doing and the weight began to effortlessly fall off. I was nearly 10lbs less than I was when I first got pregnant and was enjoying plenty of wine too;)
Not sure if you’ve ever heard of Marc David – he is an expert in Eating Psychology – and his books helped shift my thoughts around diet and food more than anything else I have ever read (and I’ve read a lot). If you are at all interested I would highly recommend both his books, “Nourishing Wisdom” and “The Slow Down Diet”.
Enjoy your cake!!! xo
Maria Peters says
Thank you so much for your support and kind words, Dani. I really needed an affirmation from someone who has been there. 🙂 I hate the perfectionist, micro-manager that I have been becoming as I strive to loose the last, now 6, pounds. I want to enjoy health and wellness like I did during my last weight loss and have loosing weight be a nice side effect. I think that there are a lot of people who become so wrapped up in the weight loss and/or maintenance that eating becomes work and that can lead to some scary eating disorders.
Also, thanks for the book recommendations. As you know, I am a total health, wellness and fitness nut and would love another author to follow. After taking a look at them on Amazon, they look right up my alley.
Thanks again. I am going to enjoy my cake… And maybe even a glass of wine. 😉
Thanks for sharing, Maria. You did a good job anyway, and now you are back to Cooler 2, still on the right path! I have a lot to learn from you, to love myself the way I am, among other things..
Water. I drank way too little water yesterday, I feel bloated and constipated today. Your body gets used to eat clean, that’s for sure!
Keep up the good work, and have a nice day! (It’s 6am here, I’m going for a quick run before the day starts, my sons Confirmation today..there will be food..and cakes..sigh..)
..did you use these forms?
I’ll give Cooler 1 a try from Tuesday – Friday…4 days that will be, Saturday I “have to eat” a bit more at a party.
Maria Peters says
Why, yes I did use my checklists to keep track of my food while on Cooler 1. Good luck with Cooler 1 next week. How was the Confirmation party?
The Confirmation went well! The sermon in Church was one to remember. Family gathered for two days. Glad it’s over though..it’s kind of busy too.
(Am I doing Cooler 1 tomorrow..? I did print the checklist..)
Maria Peters says
It’s great to hear. That you enjoyed yourself. Yes, you sure are doing Cooler 1 tomorrow, my dear. 😉